LAN Party - January 2005

Well, I'd have to say the same problem that plagued me the last time plagued me again this time - my senses were dulled due to lack of sleep. I remember the time in the morning during one of the 2003 LAN parties - I was king. :D The LAN party started at around 5pm when chewxy, f1freak and I decided to move chewxy's comp downstairs to join mine in his mother's music room. We set up the computers - and it was party time. Two computer and three people was hilarious fun and we attempted to whack each other in Counter-Strike: Source. After a while, maybe around 8pm, my small brother arrived. He could kick some serious butt - (OK, it was more like f1freak's butt). Before that, I decided to make some switches to the power management so that we could sustain the four computers expected to arrive. At around 8 something, CKL, arrived with his beautiful LCD screen (envy!). His graphics card started acting funny (it needed heat to function). He spent quite a while trying to fix that problem while f1freak and my younger bro were battling it out in Counter-Strike: Source. At nearly 11pm, muuti arrived with his computer. He brought the entire monitor box with him (unlike me) and we spent some time setting it up. The LAN party had finally reached its full roster, although some of the participants (f1freak and my younger bro) had to leave. We played one round of Warcraft 3, some Unreal Tournament 2004, some Serious Sam 2, some Dota Allstars and some Need for Speed Underground 2. We had a lot of fun, but the serious lack of participants and computers had made the LAN party a little dry.

There was a funny thing that happened though - we decided to try out this Seriously Warped Deathmatch that came with Serious Sam 2. We played a few crazy maps, including one that was absolutely odd where there was no top or bottom. I enjoyed myself thoroughly - but I think a 6600GT sitting in my computer would have absolutely changed my standings.

Miracle? Probably Not.

Yesterday, I got into a heated battle with one of the traders on LowYat.Net. I'd have to say that it was my fault. I was poking a little too hard for my own good, I suppose. Frankly, never did expect it to happen that way. From bad to worse, we both made rash decisions and eventually it led to a disaster which I would say should have ended today when he started listening to what I had to say. I would have to say that my decisions should stay as they are - I will still probably want to sell the card off if there is one for me at the end of this. This will probably be the last graphics card bulk I will ever join for the next few years. I suppose I should do some soul searching after this to find out what started this - was it me or was it shared? About the miracle in the title, my phone line got struck by lightning today. It surged through my surge protector, into my DSL modem and into my phone. I saw the spark. It felt hot and felt like it had hit me. I imeediately shut down the computer in fear of further damage. Just on Friday, I was talking with chewxy about how he and I were completely opposites. He was the embodiment of Murphy's Law for electronics, and I was the complete opposite. The modem survived the blast, the phone survived the blast and so did the surge protector. How was that possible? I really don't know. To me, it was impossible to begin with. I lost two modems to the force of lightning before.

I probably won't be tempting fate so much any more. Rainy season coming in a few months. Time to change habits for a while. ;)

Back to Reality

I don't know who I am anymore. I seem to be moving down a path I don't like, and I don't like what I see on the way. Things have gone horribly wrong this week - maybe it's not a matter of conflict, but a matter or precognition. I don't know what has gotten into me these few days, but I know what I know. I'm beginning to think I can see the future and the tapertry of fate. I'm still at a conflict about how real this world is. Delusions are moving into an accelerated state, and I don't know what I think anymore. A simple figment of imagination is turning into a nightmare as quickly as it could, I'm feeling and seeing things I shouldn't be at this point. Worse part is that some of them may be connected to me. The threads tell me exactly what I need to know. The only problem at this point is that I don't know how to decipher this signals. It's continuous haunting me how weird this world is and how many conincidences happen more often than not. The world is coming to a point where I think that either I control it, or I know everything about it. The way I'm looking at things - the longer I stay on Earth, the worse things become. But I know that this is not possibly true. It's absurd.

Everything changes in a heartbeat - it is completely unpredictable what I'm going to see next, but I believe that I am now no longer in a stable enough state to continue on with too much in my life. This is beginning to sound like a suicide note, but it isn't. This is my release for all things that have gone wrong. Things need to change around here, and it has to start with me.

Everything must change. Or nothing will survive. This is the beginning of the end of this war.

Now Playing: Simple Plan - Perfect World

I never could’ve seen this farI never could’ve seen this coming Seems like my world’s falling apart

Yeah

Why is everything so hard I don’t think I can deal with the things you said It just won’t go away

In a perfect world This could never happen In a perfect world You’d still be here And it makes no sense I could just pick up the pieces But to you This means nothing Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong Until the day it all went wrong I think I need a miracle to make it through

Yeah

I pictured I could bring you back I pictured I could turn back time Cuz I can’t let go I just can’t find my way Yeah Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world This could never happen In a perfect world You’d still be here And it makes no sense I could just pick up the pieces But to you This means nothing Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now I don’t know where I should go I’m still here waiting for you I’m lost when you’re not around I need to hold on to you I just can’t let you go

Yeah Yeah

In a perfect world This could never happen In a perfect world You’d still be here And it makes no sense I could just pick up the pieces But to you This means nothing Nothing at all Nothing, nothing at all Nothing at all

Time to Frag

Tomorrow, I'll be busy turning my friend's character into tiny pieces of meat on screen. I hope I succeed at reigning among them with my 1337 skills. Should recover from instability after some frenzied fun. ;) My expected plan for tomorrow ;) : 2:00pm - Picking up my brand new graphics card. A 6600GT AGP - should give me the edge I need. 3:30pm - Going to the host's house. 4:00pm - Have everything set up. 4:30pm - Benchmarks! 5:00pm - Fun time! 7:oopm - Dinner? 8:00pm - More frenzied battles! 12:00am - Some much needed sleep.